Achievement

I am no good at starting jobs that feel like they will take forever.  When I clean upstairs i clean every room before I start on Jovi's room because even with her helping it is always the messiest room.  I have had fabric cut out and ready to piece together for a quilt for Jovi for like 3 months because a whole quilt feels like such a big project and I keep putting smaller, "easier" projects in front of it.  And then there was my email inbox.  I started a new email account when I got married 6 1/2 years ago.  I went from RachelHirschy at yahoo to RachelElizabethFlores at yahoo for obvious reasons.  Anyway, I am much more likely to keep emails than throw them away and for the first few years I didn't even think about organizing my inbox and then by the time that I realized it would be very useful to have a lot of folders and an empty inbox it had turned into a job that felt like it would take forever to finish.  I even started organizing it several times throughout the years, but after a few hours I would loose focus or be interrupted.  As of a few days ago I had 1000 unread emails (these were mainly company coupons that I left just in case i might want to use it) and over 6500 emails. I had emails from 2004-2010, from friends, businesses and a whole bunch from my year long stint volunteering for a nonprofit.  After a few days and about six hours I am happy to report that I have an empty inbox and I still kept the important emails in my now fairly comprehensive collection of folders.  It may seem like a small achievement to many people, but it was a big one for me.  With this success I think I'm ready to start that quilt and maybe even tackle Jovi's closet.

Would you rather...

Growing up I loved this children's book; Would You Rather...  Apparently it is not in print anymore, but if your library has it I suggest checking it out.  You get to choose between a bunch of gross options, some scary options and some really cool options.  It was a favorite read aloud at our house and we would all get to say what we would rather doing and why.  Lots of games and new books, some of them VERY adult (too adult for me) are on the market that let you do the same thing, but Juan isn't a fan of choosing between all good or all bad options unless he's forced into it so no games for us and I didn't really even know about the books until I did this search. Anyway, I like would you rather stuff and hope some of you do too.  Here is a little list to think about and my personal answers, please comment if you would choose something different :).

1.Would you rather be blind or deaf?
Deaf, a loss of any sense is hard, but I am SUCH a visual person I think sight would be the hardest sense for me to loose.

2.Would you rather loose and arm or a leg?
A leg because a prosthetic leg is a better replacement that a prosthetic arm.

3. Would you rather be beautiful, but dumb or ugly, but smart?
This depends on degrees for me, as long a your are smart enough to live independently I would choose beautiful, but dumb because I think it offers a greater chance for happiness than ugly but smart.  If you were so disabled you couldn't live independently I'd choose ugly, but smart.

4. Would you rather be more rich or more attractive?
If the "new me" started now I would choose rich because although I am decidedly average looking, Juan likes how I look and money would be more useful.  If I were single I might choose differently.  If this was starting when I was born I would choose more rich because money issues can cause SO much stress in a family, more rich benefits far more people than one person being more attractive. 

5. Would you rather it be winter forever or summer forever? 
I would take a nice northern style or tropical summer forever any day, but I do like changing seasons.  I think I'd choose having a Texas winter over a Texas summer all the time, but I don't know, neither are my ideal weather. 

What are some other good would you rather questions?

The more I experience...

The more I experience the less I know. Isn't that the beginning of wisdom or something? Well, I sure don't feel wise, just...lost. I was a psychology major. I did fairly well in my classes. I thought it was fascinating trying to discover motivation for actions. Why do people...? was always a fascinating question that I could usually come up with an answer to. I now understand that most of my reasoning was the arrogance of youth. When I was young I thought I knew the why of what people did most of the time. I was sure that it could be known even if I didn't know. Now I'm not sure. I can *think* I know why someone did or chose something, but I've been proven wrong so many times I have no confidence in my conclusions. I strongly suspect that the motivation for many actions can never be known, sometimes not even by the person who does them. What it comes down to is that I don't understand people. I *think* I understand my people, my family and close friends, but I could even be wrong about them. I certainly don't understand anyone else. It's like functioning in a perpetual fog, but I guess it's better to know I'm in fog than to think I can see clearly when I can't.