30

I turned the big 3-0 on Saturday.  What does that mean?  I don't know.  Do I feel older?  Not particularly.  Juan is older than me, 6.5 years older than me so everytime I get older I just look at him and feel young.  I know he's been there, done that for a while and he's doing great so I'm sure I'll do great too.  It's a nice security blanket except for the fact that statistically speaking, he will die before me and I will have to live the last years of my life alone. 

Anyway, I remember as a kid my parents saying that as you get older you didn't really feel any different than when you were a kid.  I also remeber totally not believing them.  OF COURSE, you felt older than when you were a kid.  As a parent you were OLD, you had responsibilities, you were DIFFERENT.  Now, as a parent, I totally know what they were talking about.  No matter how old we are we stay pretty much the same.  Sure we grow, hopefully increase in wisdom, certainly we increase in experience, our bodies eventually break down, but who we are, our souls, are ageless.  It really makes me look at people differently than I used to, age is truely just a number, not very important at all.